There is so much to say but I can’t seem to coherently
gather my thoughts together. Over the past few days I started to think about
how I would put together my first blog post as an unemployed person on my
“Corporate Korea” blog.
Last month during my last business trip to SF I had a panic
attack, of all places, on the airplane, in the middle of the flight as others
surrounding me were peacefully sleeping. Thankfully my sister was sitting next
to me, sleeping like a rock to my avail. I woke her up and vented my feelings.
She quickly helped me with some therapy (she’s a counselor in the making) and
picked me up and got me laughing within minutes. Crying, laughing, craziness
galore. This kind of behavior gives you rainbow colored pubes (so my mother
says.)
Overwhelmed with personal/work/future/moving out of the apt
and korea/lack of sleep etc, etc, the stress piled on high enough to topple
over in several directions. It was time to either sink or swim and I sank. It
was rather annoying because it came out of nowhere and at the time I had no
idea why I was feeling so crazy. Even watching the Justin Bieber movie was too
stressful for me to handle. I didn’t sleep a wink during the flight and rigidly
held on to the armrests as my sanity felt like it was swirling out of
control. Fuckign Justin Bieber. I love
you.
I’m better now, though I am currently suffering from a very
separate life altercation which I will elaborate on later.
